"when you forgive, you in no way change the past- but you sure do change the future." - Bernard Meltzer
Forgiving someone else is easy, or at least it always has been for me. What I've been working on is forgiving myself and learning to love myself. I can not go back in time and change my actions or my words. It is human to make mistakes, recognizing our mistakes and accepting our responsibility in those mistakes is what is important. We all deserve forgiveness but the only forgiveness that matters is forgiving yourself. You are stuck repeating the same self destructive and hurtful patterns until you can love yourself enough to forgive yourself.
I am an onion (not saying I smell bad here). I'm peeling off the layers of crap that have accumulated over the years. Some of these layers you can peel away on your own, others you are only able to peel away through connections with other people. I've found myself connecting with a wide variety of people with my only intention being to learn something about myself through the interaction. I've made new friends, both male and female, who have very different perspectives on life and I have enjoyed learning how and why they have those very outlooks. It is easy to sit back and judge someone from the outside- but we don't learn anything from that. Appearances aren't everything, let alone anything at all sometimes. It is the reflection of yourself that you see in that person that counts. So I pulled off a few layers last night and I am thankful for the chance to do so (not calling you crap here, just the hurt from everything was crap).
So here it is- I dare you to love yourself. Not the superficial faux self-esteem kind of love. The kind of love where you know that you are worth anybody and everybody's affection but you are completely content being your own best friend. I know that I'm still working on it...
No comments:
Post a Comment